It seems I’ve been stumbling along lately. I haven’t been posting here even though I enjoy it. The rocks in my road of life have gotten huge and difficult to get over. Both Hubs and I got a nasty respiratory infection all through December. Then I took it further with dehydration and ended up in the hospital for a week in January.

Then just this Monday I had to put my last dog to sleep. Devastating doesn’t describe how it feels even though I’ve been through this same scenario numerous times. My little brown girl had to be put down in July last year. It doesn’t get any easier.

I’m not getting any more animals. I’ve been taking care of animals continuously (except for about 2 or 3 years) since I was 10. I’ll be 65 this year. Some of it was professionally, some were my own animals. Either way I’ve put in my time.

This was my last dog. I helped bring her into the world and she would’ve been 16 in August. She needed a lot of care but she loved me and I certainly love her. It’s one of the hardest decisions to make, most every time. Some of my animals left no doubt that it had to be done. Some, like her, made me agonize over it. In the end, she was piling on problem after problem and I would not let her struggle because I didn’t want to go through the pain of losing her. I’ve written about it before. So now I’m in agony but she is at peace.

Once I get past the grief, I’ll be ok. We will be able to leave home for more than a day, which we’ve been wanting to do for a while now. Right now it’s not a consolation.


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  1. I’m so sorry to hear you had to make that very painful euthanasia decision…. one of the hardest and agonizing decisions there is to make (in my opinion) and you are so right…. it never gets easier. It’s so hard saying goodbye to such a faithful friend and member of the family. I’m sending loving thoughts and hugs your way and will say a prayer for you too.

    I’m also sorry to hear about your hospitalization in January. Sounds like a nasty bug you had! What a way to start the year out, huh? I hope you are all healed and feeling better.

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    1. It’s great to hear from you Gail! I hope you’re doing well and enjoying life. Thanks for the kind words. I know you understand. I still expect to see her on the couch. Healthwise, I’m feeling better, thanks.

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  2. Oh, man, sorry to read about your health struggles earlier this year. I hope you’re both feeling well now!!

    Your kind choice to help your furry little girl be at peace, while hard, is what us humans get as the saddest part of being a pet owner. Hopefully, all the happy memories will replace the hard time you shared at the end of her life. I had to make those choices a couple of years ago for my faithful companion. I miss having a dog around, but I’m like you in feeling like no more pets is the way to go. It’s just too hard and the freedom to go for more than a partial day would be something our pups would want us to be able to do. Hugs to you! Take care, dear!

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    1. I definitely felt your pain when you lost little Copper. I still can’t think of any memories yet. It still just brings tears. In time though, it’ll get better. Thanks for your kind and thoughtful words Shelley. They mean a lot.

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